This is graphic and detailed. But it's exactly what's going on in your head. It's not you...you have to deal with it...and one way is to let it out....which is what you've done.

I completely understand how you're feeling, what you're dealing with and the fear of lossing your mom and brother. Every call you receive causes you to panick, because you're hoping it's not about something bad like lossing one of them.

I understand you dear.

Thanks for sharing this. Know that there are a lot of us here too who constantly have to deal with this. It's encouraging to hear others share their story on how death affects us and our relationships with our loved ones.